feelings:

grateful for those who had console me(thnx)
regretted for not getting the GOLD
hate myself for being a failure
remorseful for being a harmful treat
guilty for the mistakes
foolish to cry non-stop
idiotic for not making the best


i feel so down now...i shall not elaborate words cannot explain how i feel i really feel veri heartpain i noe it is all my fault i have trash it all i really dunno how to face you all i noe some might have not blame me but i cannot stop myself from blaming my ownself i hope i can get over it but it is difficult becox it was all my fault i noe cant do anything to change it all i jus wan to apologise i noe it is of no use now but i hope u all accept the apology but i dun expect ur forgiveness it is my last year yet i still such a failure i feel sorry for wasting my seniors effort i want to thank all the seniors whether they like or dislike me i have great gratitude towards them and i can say i feel proud to b ur junior but i tink u will say u do not feel proud habing such a useless junior...i dunno what i can do or say i hope times travels back i hope i was not in there mayb u all might b able to strike i m the one in fault.Sorry pple.i feel very remorse seeing u all sad i hope i can do something to make you all feel better but i dunno what i can do.Sorry!